When you request honesty, I deliver. Knowing what I'll be met with is judgement. You can tell me 100 times in a row that you're working on changing, but the year's responses have taught me what to expect. I may act aloof, but I'm not naive. I've learned to hide the true expectation of disappointment [...]
Tag: depression
“Start Where You Are”

Is it always so strange to see things from a perspective other than what we're comfortable with? The word "comfortable" is used so flippantly day to day. Our "comfort zone" or eating "comfort food" while watching movies with our "comfort blanket" (while when we were young children sucked our thumb to soothe aka "comfort" ourselves).Is [...]
An apology fit for… Hopefully understanding..
๐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ง๐ข๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ, ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ด๐ด๐ช๐ฃ๐ญ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ด๐ต, ๐'๐ท๐ฆ ๐ง๐ข๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐บ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง. I never meant to on purpose. It was a road paved in golden good intentions. I swore having all of you to remain accountable to, would help keep me honest and aware but instead, I hid from you all as well. It's been ugly and [...]
Untitled by The Shy Poet

Photo by Simon Migaj on Pexels.com I asked her if she was okay.And she said, โIโm fine. I swear.โBut when I looked into her eyes,I clearly saw her struggles there. She quickly looked away,And tried her best to smile.She said softly, โIโll make it through this,Itโs just taking me a while.โ I knew she was [...]
What I Think Will Be A Short Story – Symbolism and Metaphors

Have you ever stared into the distance and thought ๐ญ to yourself something so twisted you ๐ค think to yourself that whoever has figured out the telepathy technology is going to send some sort of federal response after me. Oh, don't get excited, I'm not talking the "foil hat" worries, just trying to put the [...]
Chinese Finger Trap..
**DISCLAIMER** If the title is offensive, please educate me on the name of the trinket that you get your fingers stuck if you pull, but if you push then lightly pull back you free your fingers. If I had to attempt to explain where my own personal mental health is at, the title does it [...]
Is It Ever Enough?

The challenge of explaining to someone the difficulties of active crisis. I've tried to explain the difference of ideation and actually planning/execution.
When the Tables Turn…

Is it a double standard to give advice you know feels hollow when you're in the same position?
Slow Down…
This one will be short and sweet. Sometimes in life, you just need to slow down and go soft. Many people have the mantra of "Go Hard!", however, there are times where when you try to force something it doesn't work. Yet when you soften your touch it fits right together. Maybe that's what the [...]
So It Continues..

Life has a funny way of being extremely ironic. Today's adventure into fate's sense of humor has to do with my favorite HR rep. You know, the one I've complained about that takes up a surprising amount of space in my head. Well after she recently spent 30 minutes trying to make me feel guilty [...]